Sleeplessness

I am so tired. My back hurts and I have a crick in my neck from staring at this computer too long. I can barely hold my head up, I’m so tired.

But as soon as I get in bed to go to sleep, my eyes pop open and I’m wide awake. Thoughts start running around inside of my brain. So I decided to start keeping a journal. A place where I can put some of this stuff down, and I don’t have to expose all of the skeletons in my closet here on my blog.

So I’m just typing my journal, because it’s faster than writing. And the more I put down, the more I think about. And it becomes this long, rambling stuff (You know, sortof like my blogs). Tonight was the second night I have done this. And now I’m even more confused than I was before. I think I need a shrink. My fear though is that if I really say all this stuff out loud to someone, they’re gonna lock me up.

Hopefully if I keep up the journaling things will start to make sense. *sigh* Guess I’m gonna go lay awake for awhile.