So I haven’t posted a blog in a while. And I decided maybe that’s what I need to do. Get some of this crap out of my head. So here we go…
These holidays sucked. I have never experienced holiday depression before, but this year I did. I suppose under the circumstances of everything that has happened the last couple years it’s only natural. Two weeks before Christmas all I could think was how I was just ready for the new year to begin so everything would go back to normal. But here we are a month into the year, and I’m still waiting for normal.
My job is going well. I’m getting quite a bit busier at work, which is a good thing. Makes me feel like I’m actually earning my keep. The benefits are great, and the job security means I’m close to getting my own place which is a really good thing.
I have more to be hopeful about now than I have had in a very long time. But somehow, the hopeful feelings I had last year – the excitement about starting fresh and building a life of my own – have given way to this overwhelming sadness and feeling of just being….lost. I can’t believe how long it’s taken to get to where I am now. And although I know I have, I don’t feel like I’ve really made much progress.
And gosh…do I even dare talk about the whole single life thing? I know I wasn’t really out there a whole lot as a single woman before I got married. So call me naive and inexperienced. But I have been completely blown away by how many creeps there are out there. I mean, I knew they existed, but the reality of it has been a real shock. Not that I am really looking for anything. I still really just need to focus on myself and work on getting my act together, without the added complication of dating relationships. But as soon as word gets out that you’re divorced, the cockroaches start crawling out of the woodwork. I am so dumbfounded that somewhere in their minds, they think that their approach and what they are offering is appealing in any way. And since the topic seems to keep coming up, let me just state once more for the record: I will not be dating any men who are married, engaged, or attached in any other way, shape, or form. Guess that’s one more reason I’m looking forward to that concealed carry permit.
Well, that’s the news from Sarah’s life…where all the women are strong, the men are good-looking, and all the children are above average.