I know, I know. But don’t get used to it. I’m sure you know me well enough to know that I won’t REALLY start posting every day. But I thought I’d take a few minutes to add to my little life update I started last night.
I was extremely disgusted with myself last year when I got off of the Weight Watchers plan and gained back all the 20+ lbs. I had lost….plus a few more. I really wanted to get back on track and make this the year that I finally start getting healthy, but I knew that I wouldn’t have the motivation or discipline to stick to an exercise plan. I was also really struggling to get back to healthy eating, so I finally decided to kill 2 birds with one stone.
In February I joined a gym and got signed up with a personal trainer. He not only coaches me in my workouts a couple days a week, but they set me up with a nutrition plan, and he keeps tabs on what I’m eating. It’s a form of accountability I’ve never really had before. It’s definitely not easy. The very first day of my new “diet”, my mother decided to bake cookies that I, of course, was not allowed to have. That was probably really God testing me. God made my mother bake cookies.
I’ve cheated a few times here and there. And it’s been really tempting to revert to some old habits of “closet eating”…binging in secret. But ultimately, I know that if I do that, I’m just cheating myself. And completely canceling out all the hard work I’m doing when I work out. I’ve lost just a little over 10 pounds so far. My natural tendency is to feel discouraged that I haven’t lost more yet, but I’m trying to keep a positive attitude.
I’ve been keeping extremely busy lately. I have commitments on my calendar every week night, and the weekends always seem to fill up too. I think back to right after I moved back home three years ago, and I was so depressed because I had nothing to do…*sigh*…Now I get frustrated because I have no time to get things done at home.
I really am shocked when I think about the fact that May will mark 3 years since the divorce and moving back home. In some ways, I can’t believe it’s been so long. In other ways, the 7 years preceding the divorce is beginning to fade a little. Like it was all a dream, or story I read about someone else.
Then there are days that I struggle to let go of my resentments and hurts. But I am definitely making progress in that area. A couple of my weeknight commitments revolve around my involvement with the Celebrate Recovery (CR) ministry at church. CR has got to be one of the most powerful and life-changing ministries around. But more on that later.
This post is long enough for now…I’ll *try* to post more soon. 😉